Thursday, March 8, 2012

That was then.

Before.

Last summer, I clocked in at 220 pounds. I stopped looking at the scale once I saw that number. I hadn't been that number since I was pregnant with Lillie. I weighed less when I found out I was pregnant with her. I showed the Husband this picture and he shook his head, he never saw me like this. I saw this. I was so disgusted with what I'd done to myself that I just stopped looking. I averted my eyes at the mirror. I slid away from the camera's eye. I still don't know how I happened upon the site that led me on the path to where I am now. I do know that it's been an eye opening journey.
I can't stop thinking about walking, running, yoga, dancing, running some more... My anxiety levels have changed somewhat, but I'm still taking that topic day to day. Today? Wasn't so good, but again, taking that one day at a time.
This is me now. I weighed myself a few days ago and I'm at 178. That's a 42 pound loss. Wait for it... WAIT FOR IT... I want to lose another 20. I try not to think about the fact that 150 is still considered overweight for my height, but I can't tell you the last time I was 150. Middle school? Elementary school? I have no idea. NONE. I can't wait for summer. I can't wait to show off the non-pouch, the sudden loss of my "librarian arms" and MY BUTT. You guys, I've waited way too long to have a butt. I HAVE A BUTT. It's not much, but it's something. Just a few more months of grocery store lunges and maybe I'll have my own "Buns of Steel" DVD (think late night grocery shopping and using the cart for balance as you lunge down the cereal aisle. OH YES I DO THIS.)

So this is me now, this is pretty much my wardrobe because have you had to buy yourself a new wardrobe every month or so? No thank you. You need $$$ for that, and I don't exactly have a sugar daddy. You guys let me know if you find one that's available. Yoga pants? Check. T-shirt or tank top? Check. Flippy floppies? Check. The end.

 After. The lighting does nothing for my now "non" pouch.

18 comments:

  1. WOW! GREAT JOB!!!!!!!!!!!! ::whistle::

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    1. Thanks, ma'am! I whistled too (at the first picture) because, OMG. Was I really that big and NOT pregnant??? I'm ashamed for letting myself slip that far.

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  2. You look fabulous and much younger than the original photo! Good for you--great inspiration for those of us wanting to lose those extra pounds!

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    1. It's so amazing what weight can do for your looks agewise. My "could have been ex-mother in law" ran into me the other day and couldn't shut up about how much my complexion and glow had changed. I almost wanted to tell her, "I know I look amazing, make sure you tell your son!"

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  3. Wow. I'm struggling for another word but keep coming back to wow.

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    1. I'll take that as a compliment any day! :)

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  4. You look FANTASTIC! Keep up all the work you do. You will get there by summer. It's the tortoise not the hare...

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    1. I hope so!!! I'm in love with TWO bathing suits now, so it's gotta happen!

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  5. GET IT GIRRRRRRRL! You look great!

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  6. Looking good, Mama!!! I am proud of you, for sticking to this for so long. I can only hope for half of your persistence!

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    1. I'd like to say I did it for the kids, but in all honesty, I did it for me. I see how the weight has effected my family through diabetes, heart disease, self esteem, etc. and knew it was time. Persistence was fueled by the dropping digits on my scale. ;) Plus, have you seen fat girl clothes? So unflattering! I was TIRED of pretending to be fashionable AND fat.

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  7. Awesome job, girlie! Keep it up! Or down. Whatevs.

    And puh-leeeez turn off the captcha! Purty please?!

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    1. If I didn't fall down the stairs last night, I would be doing yoga right now. I should probably still do yoga later tonight once I no longer have to fear sobbing in front of the kids (I only fell down a few steps, but they were concrete steps, DAMMIT.) I bruised and scratched up my right foot pretty good and my left thigh is killin' me, yo!

      BTW, captcha has been SHUT DOWN. You're welcome. :)

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  8. You look AH-MA-ZING! Keep it up! And send some motivation my way!

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    1. You're the only one who can truly motivate yourself. Nothing will ever really change unless you get up and just GO. And girl, puhleeeeease. I'd still have to lose at least another 30 pounds to be a skinny bitch like you. ;)

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  9. Amazing! Congratulations to you! You look wonderful!

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